For Evan's Sake: November 2008

Overall, my pregnancy with Evan was a sweet time for our family. I didn't take as many pictures of my growing belly as I had done when I was pregnant with Allison. So, the pictures I do have are very special to me now. They remind me of the innocence I used to have about life.

I read somewhere that when something like this happens, three people really die. Evan died of course, but so did my old self and the old Cory. We are no longer the same people we were before Evan died. In many ways we are better, but we we never will be the same. I realized that we are mourning the loss of the people Cory and I used to be along with the loss of Evan. I hope our friends and family will grow to love the new version of us.

We think Evan has made us better versions of ourselves with a stronger faith and love for our family. In spite of all the good that has come out of this sorrow, please know that I would give it all back in a heartbeat to have Evan here with us physically. Since that is obviously not an option, I will take all the good that I can get.

Can you become
Can you become
A new version of you

New wallpaper
New shoe leather
A new way home
I don't remember

New version of you
I need a new version of me

New version of you
I need a new version of me
(Felicity Theme Song)

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation;
old things have passed away;
behold, all things have become new
2 Corinthians 5:17