Monday, November 17, 2008

A New Version of You

Overall, my pregnancy with Evan was a sweet time for our family. I didn't take as many pictures of my growing belly as I had done when I was pregnant with Allison. So, the pictures I do have are very special to me now. They remind me of the innocence I used to have about life.

I read somewhere that when something like this happens, three people really die. Evan died of course, but so did my old self and the old Cory. We are no longer the same people we were before Evan died. In many ways we are better, but we we never will be the same. I realized that we are mourning the loss of the people Cory and I used to be along with the loss of Evan. I hope our friends and family will grow to love the new version of us.

We think Evan has made us better versions of ourselves with a stronger faith and love for our family. In spite of all the good that has come out of this sorrow, please know that I would give it all back in a heartbeat to have Evan here with us physically. Since that is obviously not an option, I will take all the good that I can get.

Can you become
Can you become
A new version of you

New wallpaper
New shoe leather
A new way home
I don't remember

New version of you
I need a new version of me

New version of you
I need a new version of me
(Felicity Theme Song)

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation;
old things have passed away;
behold, all things have become new

2 Corinthians 5:17

13 Weeks pregnant with Evan

Jill, Marci & April (15 Weeks)
All pregnant at the same time!

Baba, Darren, Holly, Allison, Cory & April (24 Weeks)

25 Weeks Pregnant with Evan

Kat & April (27 Weeks)

28 Weeks

30 Weeks

31 Weeks

Misty & April (31 Weeks)

Laura & April (32 Weeks)

33 Weeks

33 Weeks

April (35 Weeks), Kate & Laura


johnstonkb said...

"No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow."
-Alice Walker
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
-Dr. Seuss
April, we always have and always will love every 'version' of you, Cory, and Allison. Love, Katie

Leslie said...

I love every version of you (and Cory, too) !!!

Anonymous said...

love you ALL...forever.

look at all those wonderful places evan went! all those wonderful experiences. when i think of him, i know that he was surrounded by LOVE every day. kind words. a sweet spirit. the most thoughtful mommy. the happiest big sister. the funniest daddy. a precious family.

love you! jill

KellyB said...

What precious pictures. I know all of us willingly accept who you and Cory are now and are still becoming. Love you guys.

Adri said...

Cory & April,

Just thinking of you guys this week and thankful for you and your family's friendship. I hope you are doing well and hope to see you soon!

Adrienne Kopacsi Guido

Becky Browning said...

We have never met, but I went to high school with Misty Meadows. My name is Becky Browning. I just wanted to reach out to you since I can 100% relate to you. My first son was stillborn 2 days before his due date. That was over two years ago. I would love to talk to you if you are interested. My email is

Have a great day!

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Praying for additional peace and mercy for you as you go through Christmas with bittersweet joy. We hold you in our prayers.
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